It was the time, I was pursuing my degree,
There was a guy who made me carefree,
I was his shore, he was my sea
I was his lock, he was my key,
And I was really really glad that he
was the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me!
Yeah! That was the time, we used to talk day and night
The only thing that mattered both was we were out of sight
Sharing every ups and downs, everything appeared alright
Until the time that we came across with some unwanted fights
This is the time, where nothing seems to get better,
Unable to accept it, there isn’t anything that makes him bother,
And here I am, hearing my senses as they mutter,
“Yes, of course, we could be friends, but not with each other!”
It seriously killed me and my world crashed down
Loneliness is all I had, and deeper I drown
I had not a single reason to smile; so I frown
Cuz I knew someone else is going to steal my crown!
I was just trying to stay calm, but my thoughts never stopped to mutter,
I was feeling crazy, but he had closed his shutter
He had thrown me today in a deep and dense clutter
Where I badly wished to scream, but not a single word I could utter.
Even the good things pricked me, I cry,
Miserable and drowning is all I felt and every little thing seemed wry
So at last I dialed his number and thought of giving it a try
Attempting to drag him back into my ocean of emotions that would never dry
The phone was ringing, I went into my reverie deep,
I wished to tell him, “Without you, I can’t eat, drink, read or sleep”
There was storm inside me which he calmed as he used to keep
But this time, his words were making my heart to weep
He appeared very normal & with his each word I die
He merely scratched my wounds until he bid good-bye
I wonder, ‘Why am I only one trying, broken knots, to tie’
And yeah! The phone was disconnected and so am I.
Memories flashed which took me into deeper and darker sea
I sat with guilt and thought ‘What might the reason be?’
‘Was it my nature or he really had always wished to be free?
Or have I irritated him to that extent that he doesn’t even miss me?’
I didn’t like anything and his every memory makes me smother
I have known for long that family members share problems with each other
I wasn’t aware that someone did notice that something was making me bother
Hence when I was asked, I thought of being truthful to my mother.
I told her how I met him and, without him, how I feel alone,
Explosion of my emotions she confronted, by my tone
My words and tears continuously flowed and requested her to calm my cyclone
But at the end, like my friends, she too suggested me to MOVE ON
And I knew pretty well that it was the only option
But with all this I tried to recall every minute DETAIL of our relation
I found that unknowingly, I had kept many restrictions
And It was all my fault hence only I felt the pain by this separation.
‘I deserve better’ is what everyone said; but for me, he was the best
Feeling nothing to do, I stare at ceiling all time; often mistaken as rest
‘This time will soon pass’ I consoled ‘It’s just a part of a test’
Living in his DETAILED memories, my family members started treating me as guest.
Looking at the happenings around me, my mind didn’t stop even for an instance
I remained alone, and there appeared widening in distance
Trying to run away from it, I was tired of such resistance
So at last I decided to put a full-stop to my existence
Everything was planned by me, my memories will only remain
With a note for my mom, I ended my life leaving all others in blame
After it, I felt peace with my soul vanishing in flame
This made me understand why storms are named after human’s name!
My mother could save me by distracting me away from that jail
She might have tried but the universe may always have let it fail
Aware about my every little DETAIL now she felt remorse and she wail
As she could drag me out of that cruel DEVIL of guilt which lied in that DETAIL!